Let's try this stuff in English (don't be afraid about finding something in German here... is quite sure I'm gonna do it soon jajajaja) Ok. I´m just too sad tonight. I know why, I know how to take this pain away just in a single moment... it's so simple, but at the same time, it's the most difficult thing I've ever tried. Difficult 'cos I don't know either what is lost deep inside myself nor what do I have to trash. I haven't faced something I should have since more than six months ago... what am I waiting for? Good question... I guess th answer shall be even better...

It´s time for me to stop thinking every single pace. I've to learn how to feel away from the ussual senses... 5 external, 5 internal... "you have all the senses you want to", somebody told me a long time ago. I've to develop every single sense i have and raise some more... millions more!! I have to share my spirit with the universe, with this cuantic universe. I've to be more and more sensitive, with an open mind for constant paradigm changes... I should let me drive through life by my feelings, my relations with the rest of the universe and all those strange forces that physicists haven't explained yet.

I haven't tried hard enough.. you're right Ye... I'm afraid of something. But it's a hard fight, 'cos I'm not positively sure about what am I afraid of. Of me? Of something or somebody near me? I'm looking for that, believe me...

As a very rare thing, tonight before I decided to write these lines, lot of people got connected into MSN and gave me some support (only those of them who already knew about me and my problems). Thanks to all of you, I'm really grateful and happy 'cos of finding people like you. I don't have to say who are you, you know who are you, I guess...

Right now, I'm listening to Foo Fighters and their new song All my life... but, to be honest, the one who take me off from the hole was the Ride of the Walkirians. Search it and enjoy it!!!!! (you can also try the Germany Anthem... es el poder!!) ¿Where's the utility of the science I worship? Right now I'm looking for some madness... I need to be insane and... maybe in certain situations, learn to feel instead of thinking... don't know at this very moment... I'm just reflecting on my past life. Looking for fears to be wiped off.

Santana has just bought his NAPA... envy, envy... no,ok. I'm happy for him... it's a great CDPlayer, with ability to play .cda, .wav, .mp3 and .mpg files. That means, you can see movies and listen to music (lot of) from this beauty... he has just seen Black Hawk Down from a CD... soon, I say to myself. By now, I'm glad 'cos mom decided that a cell phone in my hands is SO useful... I'm gonna get a new one this saturday on Bellsouth. Let's see which one, jajajaj

Maybe I'm gonna rest some... hernando helped me to get a break from this pain... al least, I will be able to sleep some. What am I gonna dream? Surprise me, beautiful mind o' mine..

See ya later.